I took food over on Thursday before I had to leave for 2 days to a convention. This is less than 48 hrs since he found her. His mother was there and another neighbor. I took my friend who is a leader in the church that the family attends. I told her what I thought before we went and when we got out of there, she said "I see exactly what you mean." We didn't say much other than express our sympathies. He started in on the whole story, then followed it with "we are sure gonna miss her" (a pause) "for a long time." Then he said "I have a lot of decisions to make" and looked at me and said "you know what I mean." I said that the economy had not been good to farmers. He was talking about financial. The kids were at the hired mans house and I asked how Justin was doing. He said fine. He said the 3 year old daughter understood what had happened and the oldest understood, but Justin and Joseph didn't really get it yet. He said that when the deputy was there that night, the 3 yr old sat on his lap and the deputy and himself told her that "mommy wasn't coming back" and that she understood and hasn't asked about her since.
During this whole time, not a tear, never choked up once, not anything like you would expect. Just kind of an attitude that its over, and its too bad, lets get on with it.
I can't get the pit out of my stomach. A friend who has been over there feeding told my husband that their wives are convinced it was not an accident. I know everyone reacts different, but if you stood in that kitchen, you would understand. Time will tell. At this point it is a closed investigation, but if her family gets here for the funeral tomorrow, maybe they will raise some questions. Even if he didn't do it, he murdered her by negligence. He could have walked out of the house and checked on her before 8 hrs. It is just too bizzare.
