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Oddly calm

This isn't a vent, but more like a question. I know I post a lot when I feel like my hair is on fire, or I am peeved with Mike...or both. Pretty much life around here....

Yesterday morning, I woke up so relaxed and refreshed, it felt like I was a whole different person. It isn't that things are going any better than usual, really. I just woke up feeling so calm, it felt weird.

Thought maybe it was just that the stretch therapy had dealt with a bad catch in my knee on Tuesday, that I finally slept better than for several nights. Yeah, we finished the worst parts of the greenhouse project on Tuesday, morning, but that is actually fun work in a way, so I don't think it was weighing on my mind, and suddenly off of it.

If this is strange, I am sorry...but, that extremely peaceful feeling lasted all day long, I fell off the sleep cliff hard again last night, and I am still moving like I am underwater this morning.

It is the strangest experience. It is like there is nothing in the world bothering me, when under my normal modus operandi, given the state of things right now, I would be railing away at several issues.

I know it is nuts to be wondering where my stress went...but, that is what this feels like. I don ' t know if it is that I have sort of systematically been dealing with situations that were aggravating me, making calls to put the ball in the other guy's court, or what. I just feel like " no problem"!

Had this sense of total,peace. Watching Winn climb his tower and making me dirt cookies, fixing his snowcone snack,
Just feeling a cool breeze and relaxing in the shade on a July day...the weather was even cooperating for a change!

We had a nice porch talk here at Jenna's while supper was heating up. Laughed at the cows, Mike even commented on some of the flowers. Supper was simple to fix, because I had planned ahead, but tasted great.

It was just this perfectly peaceful day...cannot recall having one quite like it since I was a child myself.

Why does this make me wonder what's up with this?

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Re: Oddly calm

Good for you. Maybe it is just to be enjoyed and appreciated. You have had plenty of stress these past months so enjoy the calmness today.

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Just enjoy-must be wonderful feeling.  Occasionaly have the same-just not lately.

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Maybe I didn't explain this adequately...this was way beyond relaxed. It was like I was alone in my skin, without all the problems, for the first time I can remember, since I was too young to know what problems really were.

It was like a protected feeling, like the peace was wrapped around me, keeping me in a cocoon. It was almost like descriptions I have read of deep trance states in meditation. Maybe it was like a prayer.

Today, I am feeling so much more " normal", but still not as uptight as usual, by far. Just went out and weeded ( used Roundup, too, Suey!) here at Jenna's. Mike is mowing both yards...I edged, hoed out so e crabgrass clumps from the roses.

Things are an overgrown mess in spots, but I told myself to do what I could today, take a break and rest a bit, tackle it some more later, or this weekend.

I usually have an " I've got to get it all done!" mindset. Today, it is more of "I'll get it done, sooner or later!" one.

It just feels weird, but I like it.
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Am wondering if Jenna was by your side that day... and you were feeling her presence.  Somewhere in your memory, maybe today was a day that was memorable for you and her. 

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She feels near more than you would think. This went back to my childhood for me, though,in terms of the sensations I was having, am still having throughout today.

It is such a strong sense of being aware and alive. Smells and sounds...even though my anosmia isn't really better, and my good ear is as stopped up as ever. It was like everything was just perfect...like I was just floating along.

I was busy outdoors again today. There is something about the sunlight, I think...just can't put my finger on it.
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